#ajournalOFaJESUSgirl #_theCRUSHING_crush.

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#ajournalOFaJESUSgirl

#_theCRUSHING_crush.
Please before you crucify me or give answer to this dilemma, kindly read the post to the end.
But what is a girl to do?

The first problem of society is that we deny that some things are going on...
That heavily built guy on my street with muscles that make you want a hug
that music leader in church, whenever he sings, all you hear in your head is him.. You cant see God.
That classmate, coursemate, cute, calm and so masculine it makes you blush from your stomach lining to your cheeks..each time he smiles at you..
That crush that wön't just leave your head.

Yes i'm single right now, but I've been married before. I know most of you will be shocked to hear this. The marriage didn't last long before my husband died... But during that short period of marriage, I had a crush on another man. He was ruddy, cute and so powerful! But what I loved most about him was his voice.. Each time he sang the songs he wrote, my heart would go wild. I knew I was married, but this knowledge didn't prevent my heart.. I knew he was a married man with kids, but this knowledge did not help.. I was in love! So in love that I knew his daily routine... I am sure he noticed me too.. But he stayed distant. Our house was a bungalow and his was a story building close to ours.. One evening i sighted him standing on the balcony of the second story, immediately.. I put my bathe water, stepped out to the backyard and had my bathe in the open.. My heart skipped when I noticed he had seen me and was watching me.. I knew this was wrong.. But my heart ached for him.
I thought of my man, but my heart ached for my crush
I went into my room and waited, 'surely he would come knocking' thankfully my husband had traveled for the whole month
but he didnt...
Instead.. He sent for me.
With each step to his house I knew what this was about.... But my heart kept on.
No wife. No kid insight.. From the first kiss and warm embrace.. I was lost in sweetness!
But the next month I noticed i was pregnant.. I told my Crush and he said he would do something about it...
A few days later, my husband died in a communal clash.. Wow! I was relieved.. But pained.. No one would know he wasn't the father of my child.. My first child.. I could keep the baby of the man I was in love with..

But i'm worried for the daughters I will have.. How do I help them handle crushes?
How do show them how to stay away from the men they're so obsessed about?

The name of my crush is David.. My husband's name is Uriah and my name is.... BATHSHEBA.

Help me.. What do I tell my daughters about that Crushing crush?
                                                                             Mercy-Hephzibah Esang and Seyi Adaraniwon

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